Its been 1.5 years of
manic depression
sleeeping recession
eating disorder
mind being out of order
fear of my mirror image
puttting thoughts into a cage
quarter-life crisis
Life's stale slices
lack of self-belief
Pills for pain relief
having an overworked right brain and an underdeveloped left brain.
falling again in a very messy drain.
fear of life more than death.
waiting eagerly for death at my doorsteps.
Every morning, I wake up and get disappointed to find myself alive.
Every morning, no matter how I feel, i get up, dress up and show up at work and my dance class and my drum class.
I promise myself to fake it and don't know if I will ever make it through my situation.
Every day, I force myself to smile when my head is bleeding and laugh when my heart gives up beating.
Dear God, I want you to be proud of me coz I am really trying hard to lead a normal abnormal life. Send me love and luck ASAP.
STOP FUCKING ME FOR GOD'S SAKE.
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Hi,
This post is exactly what I feel. Strangely, I felt comforted to know that someone else knows what its like :-/
I am posting this on my blog (http://samarpita.in), with credits to you and a link to this page. I hope you wont mind.
If you want it removed, please let me know at samarpita@youthleader.in (though i am hoping you would be okay)
- S
P.S. Loved the rest of your blog too.
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